Yesterday, 10:19 PM
== Enroute to Earth ==
== CSO Office - Science Complex ==
Lucy didn’t want to find herself in this situation again. That meant changing for the better or some version that was in the ballpark. She served a purpose. She wanted to be a functioning part of the crew. She loved the crew, but wished she could consistently feel the same about herself.
“I don’t want to end up in this situation again. I feel the implications and consequences viscerally. I want to be a better crew member.”
Lucy thought about her motivation. What drove her to be a Science Officer.
“Aeryn, were you a stargazer? I was, still am. Sometimes I’d walk for hours with my parents late at night. We’d reach a point where we could look up at the night sky. No equipment or telescope. Look for the constellations. There’s so much out there. Learning and discovering.
“Last mission taught me we’re out here, not just exploring, but working to protect what is out here. Worlds, civilizations, cultures, and races. I saw the consequences of being out here. Still trying to figure out what to do with that, but I know it.”
Planetary science was in her bones, but there was that living aspect. Some were hostile and that also meant consequences. She wanted to let go of these mood shifts. Not letting them define her life and career. Her mental health was causing her concern. Her manic moments were brief, if only she could keep a lid on it. The depression clung to her like damp jeans, when it got it hooks in.
She needed to work on not letting her fears drive her into procrastination. She needed to believe in her abilities and she knew she had abilities. It was hard to trust herself, but she needed to.
== tag. ==
== CSO Office - Science Complex ==
Lucy didn’t want to find herself in this situation again. That meant changing for the better or some version that was in the ballpark. She served a purpose. She wanted to be a functioning part of the crew. She loved the crew, but wished she could consistently feel the same about herself.
“I don’t want to end up in this situation again. I feel the implications and consequences viscerally. I want to be a better crew member.”
Lucy thought about her motivation. What drove her to be a Science Officer.
“Aeryn, were you a stargazer? I was, still am. Sometimes I’d walk for hours with my parents late at night. We’d reach a point where we could look up at the night sky. No equipment or telescope. Look for the constellations. There’s so much out there. Learning and discovering.
“Last mission taught me we’re out here, not just exploring, but working to protect what is out here. Worlds, civilizations, cultures, and races. I saw the consequences of being out here. Still trying to figure out what to do with that, but I know it.”
Planetary science was in her bones, but there was that living aspect. Some were hostile and that also meant consequences. She wanted to let go of these mood shifts. Not letting them define her life and career. Her mental health was causing her concern. Her manic moments were brief, if only she could keep a lid on it. The depression clung to her like damp jeans, when it got it hooks in.
She needed to work on not letting her fears drive her into procrastination. She needed to believe in her abilities and she knew she had abilities. It was hard to trust herself, but she needed to.
== tag. ==