10-19-2026, 12:38 PM
Amila nodded seriously with Sebastian. "We can talk about how I unwind, but first..."
"I remember, Sebastian. You confessed your clausterphobia to me before Gath stepped in," she reminded him. "It's perfectly normal for the Human brain to not remember everything in those particularly traumatizing moments too. Orions are wired much the same way. When you go into fight or flight - whether it's clausterphobia, or running up against a clock on a ship that's about to blow - different parts of our brains start to work. It's not always the logical part, but it's something that's meant to keep us alive."
"I learned that missing pieces of memory is also the brain trying to protect us. Keeps us from reliving the panic," she told him.
"My first mission - away mission was on a planet. It was honestly fun at first. We were split into groups, civillian clothes, trying to get information, and I was so into the role, the danger seemed far away, and I had no idea what we were about to face."
Amila looked over to A'kilees. "I was the only middy on the team."
"My team was doing well with finding leads. Actually, I was with Lieutenant Powl and Commander Ameen if you can believe that," she offered laughing softly. "The other teams too. When it came to a head we had all independently found ourselves in a warehouse of sorts and we caught these traffickers red-handed."
"Anyway, the point is, there were a lot of them. And when they pulled weapons - I froze. Froze."
Amila looked them both in the eyes so that they would recognize that she wasn't exagerrating. "I had a phaser in my boot. A knife too. I didn't pull either when I should have. It's a blur who stepped in front of me to cover while I got my bearings."
"I was so embarassed after. But the other point here is that it worked out," she said reassuringly. "The science chief had me immediately working on the cargo as soon as we got it back to the Titania."
"By chance, after that we took on some new crew and one of their officers who had no idea what I had gone through asked if I wanted to work on target practice for fun. How could I say no?" She laughed at the coincidence. "A couple of years later we were chasing down a time ship - one of my study interests. And I was a much different officer by then, and the Captain went right to me for my knowledge, even though I wasn't anywhere near chief yet."
She was simplifying the details for them. The details weren't important. What she was trying to do was let them know that every new officer has growing pains, can panic a time or two, but that it doesn't mean it has to be a negative mark on who they are as an officer.
"No one is going to doubt your abilities because you experienced clausterphobia in those unusual situations," she assured him. She turned to A'kilees, "Or that you grabbed a heat tool assuming it would work. Almost all tech we know of today - enemy and ally, that would have been the first tool we would have reached for."
"We all know that there is only so much the Academy teaches. And that there are some things that only years and experience can give to us," she assured them. "You are both going to keep getting the big assignments unless you do something to show us that you can't learn from your mistakes."
"But, I fully expect that you will be similating more spacewalks under proper desensitization guidance, and that all of us who were there will be more like to scan first, drill second."
"Yeah?"
"And after all that training... Karaoke?" She added to lighten the mood.
==Tag A'kilees and Cortez, though anyone can approach here.==
"I remember, Sebastian. You confessed your clausterphobia to me before Gath stepped in," she reminded him. "It's perfectly normal for the Human brain to not remember everything in those particularly traumatizing moments too. Orions are wired much the same way. When you go into fight or flight - whether it's clausterphobia, or running up against a clock on a ship that's about to blow - different parts of our brains start to work. It's not always the logical part, but it's something that's meant to keep us alive."
"I learned that missing pieces of memory is also the brain trying to protect us. Keeps us from reliving the panic," she told him.
"My first mission - away mission was on a planet. It was honestly fun at first. We were split into groups, civillian clothes, trying to get information, and I was so into the role, the danger seemed far away, and I had no idea what we were about to face."
Amila looked over to A'kilees. "I was the only middy on the team."
"My team was doing well with finding leads. Actually, I was with Lieutenant Powl and Commander Ameen if you can believe that," she offered laughing softly. "The other teams too. When it came to a head we had all independently found ourselves in a warehouse of sorts and we caught these traffickers red-handed."
"Anyway, the point is, there were a lot of them. And when they pulled weapons - I froze. Froze."
Amila looked them both in the eyes so that they would recognize that she wasn't exagerrating. "I had a phaser in my boot. A knife too. I didn't pull either when I should have. It's a blur who stepped in front of me to cover while I got my bearings."
"I was so embarassed after. But the other point here is that it worked out," she said reassuringly. "The science chief had me immediately working on the cargo as soon as we got it back to the Titania."
"By chance, after that we took on some new crew and one of their officers who had no idea what I had gone through asked if I wanted to work on target practice for fun. How could I say no?" She laughed at the coincidence. "A couple of years later we were chasing down a time ship - one of my study interests. And I was a much different officer by then, and the Captain went right to me for my knowledge, even though I wasn't anywhere near chief yet."
She was simplifying the details for them. The details weren't important. What she was trying to do was let them know that every new officer has growing pains, can panic a time or two, but that it doesn't mean it has to be a negative mark on who they are as an officer.
"No one is going to doubt your abilities because you experienced clausterphobia in those unusual situations," she assured him. She turned to A'kilees, "Or that you grabbed a heat tool assuming it would work. Almost all tech we know of today - enemy and ally, that would have been the first tool we would have reached for."
"We all know that there is only so much the Academy teaches. And that there are some things that only years and experience can give to us," she assured them. "You are both going to keep getting the big assignments unless you do something to show us that you can't learn from your mistakes."
"But, I fully expect that you will be similating more spacewalks under proper desensitization guidance, and that all of us who were there will be more like to scan first, drill second."
"Yeah?"
"And after all that training... Karaoke?" She added to lighten the mood.
==Tag A'kilees and Cortez, though anyone can approach here.==