== Sorry about the length, but you two had a lot to communicate, My reply is meant with total respect, as Jez is truly confused. ==
Jez sat watching Commander Talion, she could tell that between his silence and body language, the rubbing of the bridge of his nose, the staring into his drink that he couldn’t accept or rather maybe lacked the desire to accept new and provocative new ideas.
Maybe he has never heard the old saying that we are products of our environments
Jez smiled inwardly; it wasn’t Commander Talion's fault older people often hold to the beliefs that their teachers and mentor hold; once they get their degrees they are locked into the rigid dogma of their education often overlooking or dismissing new ideas and theories. Being the daughter of Archeologists gave her a unique perspective, she had seen Ancient ruins that defied understanding, she read many of the ancient texts of these cultures, they described rapid technological, political and social, and even biological changes within a culture that would normally have taken millions of years, to have these changes happen in just a matter of a few thousand years. Could these cultures have been exaggerating, had she perhaps been reading some kind of fairy tale , or mythology, some kind of morality play, a cautionary tale perhaps, but she knew that nothing was out of the realm of possibilities. After all, Ambassador Spok was noted as saying,’ Once you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains however improbable, must be the truth.’
Jez was a little puzzled by Commander Talion when he said, "I would never wish to cause you to question your father. The relationship between a child and parent is a sacred one that none but they can understand. It is like a marriage and none but those in that relationship can truly grasp the depths of it." Jez knitted her brow in confusion. Her father and mother taught her to always question, that's how one learns.
Jez tilted her head slightly like a dog hearing a high-pitched sound. “Oh Commander you miss understood me, my parents raised me to question, as that’s how we learn, if someone puts forward a theory or a claim and you don’t question it, if you don’t let it stand some scrutiny; then how does one grow as a person? My parents taught me to question one's perceptions, and challenge one's beliefs. Not to mention that Vulcans don’t necessarily like being thought of as less than. It’s quite possible that my father exaggerated his abilities in order to impress the youngsters, especially his children. “ Said Jez, her tone a mix of sadness and disappointment. Jez didn’t want to admit that she wasn’t particularly close with her parents.
The truth was that Jez never understood what her parents saw in each other, her mother was honest and open and spoke her mind, Her father was distant, stoic, and most of the time emotionally distant, especially with his children. Jez’s parents never hugged her or were there for her when she had a problem, the only one that she could relate to was her sensei, her beloved Teddy Bear. On one level Jez knew that her parents loved her, but they were more focused on their work. They really weren’t bad parents, but they weren’t really ideal either.
Jez would remember what happened next for the rest of her life. Commander Kurasa spoke, it startled her as she had forgotten that she was there.
"I have read your file and I am familiar with the mission to Graves World and what happened there. I am also aware because I am a good investigator, that the logs do not tell the full story, not that they do on any mission. For example, you may not be aware, but my twin sister is married to your former Captain and has two children by that marriage. Hearing that you have been trained by him is to some degree a good thing; however, I feel that he may have neglected a VERY important facet of the use of your abilities." There was a pause from Commander Kurasa as if she was searching for the right words, then she added "That being the protocols which govern the time and places where you may freely employ those talents."
Jez couldn’t believe what she just heard, Sothrick was married, and he had children, this news added even more of a mystery to the man she considered a brother or even a second father.
Jez didn’t reply, she sat there allowing the Commander’s words to mull around in her head, weighing them against what she knew and what she didn’t know. Commander Kurasa then said something that seemed to contradict what they had been telling her.
Commander Kurasa said, "And the Bridge, in the presence of the Commanding officer and two of us, of Command rank, is not such a place or time. Commander Talion and I witnessed a short telepathic conversation between you and Lieutenant Xardeen. Fortunately, you and the Tactical Officer were discreet, but if Commander Prihl had been aware of said conversation it is within the realm of the possibility that I could be drawing up charges against you, and I DO Not Want That." Each of the last four words was spoken precisely and emphatically; clearly in an attempt to drive home a point.
"Ensign Mala...Jez, I believe you have enormous potential. All of your instructors spoke well of you and also from your previous First Officer Keir77, whom I met with briefly before leaving the Titania was also positive, excepting that s/he feared that you may have become exposed to some bad habits from your previous Department head. " Said Commander Kurasa.
Jez wasn’t comfortable with where this conversation was going, Jez was loyal, especially to those whom she considered a friend, and LCdr Nira Said was a friend, Jez wasn’t sure if Commander Kurasa was attacking Nira or not.
Relax, they are looking out for your best interest, relax, don't take it personally.
“ As far as Commander Said and I are concerned, on Graves World we used our abilities in an attempt to prevent a hostile situation from turning violent. That's all. '' Said Jez, her tone was slightly defensive. She didn’t want to bring up what she considered major mistake in how the situation was left.
Jez shifted in her chair slightly, she felt like she was being scolded. Jez let out a small sigh, she took a sip of her tea and ate some more of her papaya. Commander Kurasa then continued, "We are not here; Commander Talion and myself because we want to talk about the past. We are here to meet with you to help set you on a path to success in your career path. This is not the Geronimo, with less than a hundred crew.
The Aquila has close to a thousand Star Fleet personnel and perhaps as many as a hundred civilians, some of rather high rank. How we carry out our duties here, on such a large ship is much more important because there are many eyes on us, and likely some of those may either be Telepathic or at least trained to recognize such talents in use. So, until you have convinced the Commander and I of your sincerity in the matter I am here, with Alex witnessing; to give you a Direct Order.
Going forward; unless you are in private quarters or are given specific permission to do so; you will NOT employ your Telepathy without OUR prior permission; is that clear Ensign Mala?"
Jez nodded her head slightly, she was outraged on one level, but sad on another level. Did Talion and Kurasa just admit to eavesdropping on a private telepathic conversion between her and Lt. Xardeen? Jez knew enough about her abilities to know that she never gave off any outward appearance that she was using her abilities. She was nothing if not discrete.
Are these two lecturing me about using my abilities responsibly, but they didn’t properly use their abilities when they eavesdropped on my conversation with Xenara. Rather hypocritical of them. Thought Jez to herself, doing her best to understand their point of view. She didn’t know if they would see their double standards, but she hoped that they would see her point of view.
Jez looked at both of them and she wasn’t sure what to say, she sat there thinking for a few moments; as Jez tried to figure this whole situation out.
So, if the Aquila was in battle and I was on the Bridge and felt or heard a shipmate struggling to remain focused and calm, I couldn’t use my abilities to give that crewmember a few comforting words of encouragement. That's insane. Thought Jez.
You may be fighting a losing battle here, Jez. Well. Commander Talion did refer to you as feral.
Jez looked at the Commander, she sighed a little. “ Yes, Commander Kurasa, I understand completely.” Said Jez she paused a moment then addressed the both of them and said, “Commanders, with all due respect, we are friends here are we not? We have been sitting here for a while with you lecturing me on the proper use of my abilities. Don’t you find it just slightly Hypocritical of you to lecture me on the proper use of my telepathic and empathic gifts; when you eavesdropped on a private conversation between Lt. Xardeen and myself? I know that I gave, nor do I ever give visible signs that I’m using my talents. Yes, I stuck out my tongue at Lt. Xardeen, but for all, anyone knew I was just moistening my tongue because I was thirsty or I was about to speak but changed my mind. Not to mention the fact that our innocent conversation was just two friends acknowledging one another, we were not in an emergency, and we were not on a mission and as far as a Higher ranking telepathic officer goes, they would also be violating the rules of telepathic use wouldn’t they? If they were listening in on conversation. I was surprised to see a familar face, a dear friend, it was innocent. So, I’ll be honest I fail to see the point of this conversation, but if you feel that I’m lacking in my telepathic skills or disciplines or even basic discretion then I fully welcome you in tutoring me in those shortcomings.” Said Jez just to show that she could joke with the best of them. “Oh, and I won't file charges against you for eavesdropping on me and Lt. Xardeen.” Chuckled Jex her tone filled with a mixture of confusion and respect.
Jez did appreciate them wanting to help her in her career. She found both Commander Talion and Kurasa to be lovely people, but she couldn’t help but feel like she was being slightly disrespected and maybe even ganged up on. Granted she wasn’t as gifted or even as experienced as the two senior officers she was sharing a casual drink with but she was confident in her abilities and her ability to grow and adapt, as well as her discretion.
“Commanders, I’m truly sorry if I've fallen short of your expectations. From this point forward, I will be more careful and discrete in my use of telepathy.” Said Jez, her voice strong and confident.
== Tag all. ==
Jez sat watching Commander Talion, she could tell that between his silence and body language, the rubbing of the bridge of his nose, the staring into his drink that he couldn’t accept or rather maybe lacked the desire to accept new and provocative new ideas.
Maybe he has never heard the old saying that we are products of our environments
Jez smiled inwardly; it wasn’t Commander Talion's fault older people often hold to the beliefs that their teachers and mentor hold; once they get their degrees they are locked into the rigid dogma of their education often overlooking or dismissing new ideas and theories. Being the daughter of Archeologists gave her a unique perspective, she had seen Ancient ruins that defied understanding, she read many of the ancient texts of these cultures, they described rapid technological, political and social, and even biological changes within a culture that would normally have taken millions of years, to have these changes happen in just a matter of a few thousand years. Could these cultures have been exaggerating, had she perhaps been reading some kind of fairy tale , or mythology, some kind of morality play, a cautionary tale perhaps, but she knew that nothing was out of the realm of possibilities. After all, Ambassador Spok was noted as saying,’ Once you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains however improbable, must be the truth.’
Jez was a little puzzled by Commander Talion when he said, "I would never wish to cause you to question your father. The relationship between a child and parent is a sacred one that none but they can understand. It is like a marriage and none but those in that relationship can truly grasp the depths of it." Jez knitted her brow in confusion. Her father and mother taught her to always question, that's how one learns.
Jez tilted her head slightly like a dog hearing a high-pitched sound. “Oh Commander you miss understood me, my parents raised me to question, as that’s how we learn, if someone puts forward a theory or a claim and you don’t question it, if you don’t let it stand some scrutiny; then how does one grow as a person? My parents taught me to question one's perceptions, and challenge one's beliefs. Not to mention that Vulcans don’t necessarily like being thought of as less than. It’s quite possible that my father exaggerated his abilities in order to impress the youngsters, especially his children. “ Said Jez, her tone a mix of sadness and disappointment. Jez didn’t want to admit that she wasn’t particularly close with her parents.
The truth was that Jez never understood what her parents saw in each other, her mother was honest and open and spoke her mind, Her father was distant, stoic, and most of the time emotionally distant, especially with his children. Jez’s parents never hugged her or were there for her when she had a problem, the only one that she could relate to was her sensei, her beloved Teddy Bear. On one level Jez knew that her parents loved her, but they were more focused on their work. They really weren’t bad parents, but they weren’t really ideal either.
Jez would remember what happened next for the rest of her life. Commander Kurasa spoke, it startled her as she had forgotten that she was there.
"I have read your file and I am familiar with the mission to Graves World and what happened there. I am also aware because I am a good investigator, that the logs do not tell the full story, not that they do on any mission. For example, you may not be aware, but my twin sister is married to your former Captain and has two children by that marriage. Hearing that you have been trained by him is to some degree a good thing; however, I feel that he may have neglected a VERY important facet of the use of your abilities." There was a pause from Commander Kurasa as if she was searching for the right words, then she added "That being the protocols which govern the time and places where you may freely employ those talents."
Jez couldn’t believe what she just heard, Sothrick was married, and he had children, this news added even more of a mystery to the man she considered a brother or even a second father.
Jez didn’t reply, she sat there allowing the Commander’s words to mull around in her head, weighing them against what she knew and what she didn’t know. Commander Kurasa then said something that seemed to contradict what they had been telling her.
Commander Kurasa said, "And the Bridge, in the presence of the Commanding officer and two of us, of Command rank, is not such a place or time. Commander Talion and I witnessed a short telepathic conversation between you and Lieutenant Xardeen. Fortunately, you and the Tactical Officer were discreet, but if Commander Prihl had been aware of said conversation it is within the realm of the possibility that I could be drawing up charges against you, and I DO Not Want That." Each of the last four words was spoken precisely and emphatically; clearly in an attempt to drive home a point.
"Ensign Mala...Jez, I believe you have enormous potential. All of your instructors spoke well of you and also from your previous First Officer Keir77, whom I met with briefly before leaving the Titania was also positive, excepting that s/he feared that you may have become exposed to some bad habits from your previous Department head. " Said Commander Kurasa.
Jez wasn’t comfortable with where this conversation was going, Jez was loyal, especially to those whom she considered a friend, and LCdr Nira Said was a friend, Jez wasn’t sure if Commander Kurasa was attacking Nira or not.
Relax, they are looking out for your best interest, relax, don't take it personally.
“ As far as Commander Said and I are concerned, on Graves World we used our abilities in an attempt to prevent a hostile situation from turning violent. That's all. '' Said Jez, her tone was slightly defensive. She didn’t want to bring up what she considered major mistake in how the situation was left.
Jez shifted in her chair slightly, she felt like she was being scolded. Jez let out a small sigh, she took a sip of her tea and ate some more of her papaya. Commander Kurasa then continued, "We are not here; Commander Talion and myself because we want to talk about the past. We are here to meet with you to help set you on a path to success in your career path. This is not the Geronimo, with less than a hundred crew.
The Aquila has close to a thousand Star Fleet personnel and perhaps as many as a hundred civilians, some of rather high rank. How we carry out our duties here, on such a large ship is much more important because there are many eyes on us, and likely some of those may either be Telepathic or at least trained to recognize such talents in use. So, until you have convinced the Commander and I of your sincerity in the matter I am here, with Alex witnessing; to give you a Direct Order.
Going forward; unless you are in private quarters or are given specific permission to do so; you will NOT employ your Telepathy without OUR prior permission; is that clear Ensign Mala?"
Jez nodded her head slightly, she was outraged on one level, but sad on another level. Did Talion and Kurasa just admit to eavesdropping on a private telepathic conversion between her and Lt. Xardeen? Jez knew enough about her abilities to know that she never gave off any outward appearance that she was using her abilities. She was nothing if not discrete.
Are these two lecturing me about using my abilities responsibly, but they didn’t properly use their abilities when they eavesdropped on my conversation with Xenara. Rather hypocritical of them. Thought Jez to herself, doing her best to understand their point of view. She didn’t know if they would see their double standards, but she hoped that they would see her point of view.
Jez looked at both of them and she wasn’t sure what to say, she sat there thinking for a few moments; as Jez tried to figure this whole situation out.
So, if the Aquila was in battle and I was on the Bridge and felt or heard a shipmate struggling to remain focused and calm, I couldn’t use my abilities to give that crewmember a few comforting words of encouragement. That's insane. Thought Jez.
You may be fighting a losing battle here, Jez. Well. Commander Talion did refer to you as feral.
Jez looked at the Commander, she sighed a little. “ Yes, Commander Kurasa, I understand completely.” Said Jez she paused a moment then addressed the both of them and said, “Commanders, with all due respect, we are friends here are we not? We have been sitting here for a while with you lecturing me on the proper use of my abilities. Don’t you find it just slightly Hypocritical of you to lecture me on the proper use of my telepathic and empathic gifts; when you eavesdropped on a private conversation between Lt. Xardeen and myself? I know that I gave, nor do I ever give visible signs that I’m using my talents. Yes, I stuck out my tongue at Lt. Xardeen, but for all, anyone knew I was just moistening my tongue because I was thirsty or I was about to speak but changed my mind. Not to mention the fact that our innocent conversation was just two friends acknowledging one another, we were not in an emergency, and we were not on a mission and as far as a Higher ranking telepathic officer goes, they would also be violating the rules of telepathic use wouldn’t they? If they were listening in on conversation. I was surprised to see a familar face, a dear friend, it was innocent. So, I’ll be honest I fail to see the point of this conversation, but if you feel that I’m lacking in my telepathic skills or disciplines or even basic discretion then I fully welcome you in tutoring me in those shortcomings.” Said Jez just to show that she could joke with the best of them. “Oh, and I won't file charges against you for eavesdropping on me and Lt. Xardeen.” Chuckled Jex her tone filled with a mixture of confusion and respect.
Jez did appreciate them wanting to help her in her career. She found both Commander Talion and Kurasa to be lovely people, but she couldn’t help but feel like she was being slightly disrespected and maybe even ganged up on. Granted she wasn’t as gifted or even as experienced as the two senior officers she was sharing a casual drink with but she was confident in her abilities and her ability to grow and adapt, as well as her discretion.
“Commanders, I’m truly sorry if I've fallen short of your expectations. From this point forward, I will be more careful and discrete in my use of telepathy.” Said Jez, her voice strong and confident.
== Tag all. ==