Jez was tired of studying the ship, she tried ignoring the results of her last medical exam, but it kept rushing to the forefront of her mind. She could feel her emotions welling up, if it was true how would she deal with it? She was a Star Fleet Officer, she wasn’t trained to deal with something like this.
How.. How can I cope? How can I even process this…. This is horrible.
Jes didn’t know what to think, everything she had worked for was going to just slip away, What was she going to say to her family and friends. Jez hadn’t planned on this happening even if she did, it wouldn’t have been with a miserable worm of a man like Renkarn Ukinix.
Renkarn had lied, he had used her in such a horrible way. Jez could feel the tears streaming down her face, He said he loved her, but that was a lie. Yes, maybe she was naive, but she was used to complete honesty. She had loved Renkarn Ukinix, was dashing, gallant, charming and very handsome. Yes, in the Betazoid Social Hierarchy he was a member of the Ninth House, the House of Wealth, but she didn’t realize that he could be so cruel, he just felt that because he had money and power he could do what he pleased; with little to no regards towards anyone's feelings When he said he didn’t love Jez, that it was a mistake, it broke her heart. She thought , she hoped that he was the one, her Imzadi. She had given her most precious gift to a cad, a miserable creep. Yes, Jez should have known better but she was young and probably shouldn’t have been engaging in that kind of behavior in the first place.
Jez hated the House politics of Betazed, each house thinking they are better than other houses. Jez now understood how the Dominion could easily waltz in and take them over, because there was no real unity among the Houses, the Unity was superficial at best. Jez was truly at a loss as to what to do, she was crying hard to the point it was difficult to breathe.
Jez sat on her bed rocking back and forth, she wanted to scream, she just wished she had never met Renkarn Ukinix. If he had been in Star Fleet things would be easy. Jez could file a complaint with the Judge Advocate General and he would be court-martialed for conduct unbecoming of an officer or at least have a reprimand in his file, but Jez couldn’t even contact the authorities on Betazed, as his family had so much power and influence, Renkarn was the son of an Ambassador nothing would happen, it would to him; it would just get swept under the rug.
Jez sat there… for what seemed like hours. Jez could live with the fact that Ukinix could get away with what he had done, but she was worried what would happen to her Star Fleet career, she would lose everything, her career, her family's respect and the respect of her Sensi, her beloved Teddy Bear.
Why… why…. can’t men be honest and kind like Commander Talion and Commander Sothrick or even Teddy….Thought Jez.
Jez could taste the saltiness of her tears, she was scared, scared of letting down those that she loved, those people that were important to her, those who she respected. She knew that she couldn’t avoid it any longer, she had to face things head on, but still she was scared. Maybe she shouldn’t have built a wall between her and Commander’s Talion and Kusara. She was scared that they would learn of her shame, of her humiliation.
Jez knew she had to swallow her pride and ask for help, but she wasn’t sure who to talk to, who to confide in. They don’t teach you things like this at the Academy.
>> Ten Forward >>
How.. How can I cope? How can I even process this…. This is horrible.
Jes didn’t know what to think, everything she had worked for was going to just slip away, What was she going to say to her family and friends. Jez hadn’t planned on this happening even if she did, it wouldn’t have been with a miserable worm of a man like Renkarn Ukinix.
Renkarn had lied, he had used her in such a horrible way. Jez could feel the tears streaming down her face, He said he loved her, but that was a lie. Yes, maybe she was naive, but she was used to complete honesty. She had loved Renkarn Ukinix, was dashing, gallant, charming and very handsome. Yes, in the Betazoid Social Hierarchy he was a member of the Ninth House, the House of Wealth, but she didn’t realize that he could be so cruel, he just felt that because he had money and power he could do what he pleased; with little to no regards towards anyone's feelings When he said he didn’t love Jez, that it was a mistake, it broke her heart. She thought , she hoped that he was the one, her Imzadi. She had given her most precious gift to a cad, a miserable creep. Yes, Jez should have known better but she was young and probably shouldn’t have been engaging in that kind of behavior in the first place.
Jez hated the House politics of Betazed, each house thinking they are better than other houses. Jez now understood how the Dominion could easily waltz in and take them over, because there was no real unity among the Houses, the Unity was superficial at best. Jez was truly at a loss as to what to do, she was crying hard to the point it was difficult to breathe.
Jez sat on her bed rocking back and forth, she wanted to scream, she just wished she had never met Renkarn Ukinix. If he had been in Star Fleet things would be easy. Jez could file a complaint with the Judge Advocate General and he would be court-martialed for conduct unbecoming of an officer or at least have a reprimand in his file, but Jez couldn’t even contact the authorities on Betazed, as his family had so much power and influence, Renkarn was the son of an Ambassador nothing would happen, it would to him; it would just get swept under the rug.
Jez sat there… for what seemed like hours. Jez could live with the fact that Ukinix could get away with what he had done, but she was worried what would happen to her Star Fleet career, she would lose everything, her career, her family's respect and the respect of her Sensi, her beloved Teddy Bear.
Why… why…. can’t men be honest and kind like Commander Talion and Commander Sothrick or even Teddy….Thought Jez.
Jez could taste the saltiness of her tears, she was scared, scared of letting down those that she loved, those people that were important to her, those who she respected. She knew that she couldn’t avoid it any longer, she had to face things head on, but still she was scared. Maybe she shouldn’t have built a wall between her and Commander’s Talion and Kusara. She was scared that they would learn of her shame, of her humiliation.
Jez knew she had to swallow her pride and ask for help, but she wasn’t sure who to talk to, who to confide in. They don’t teach you things like this at the Academy.
>> Ten Forward >>